Drama 6 Babak... utk Che Da..

Khusus utk Che Da.. sempena serangan dari geng2 Ibu Imatch (Mama Muaz, Ibu Aqilah & Mama Hana).. enjoy che da!! :) :-

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Cepat..cepat.. kalo lambat, melepassssss .....

Allah lebih menyayangimu.. Nur Fatimah

Tepat jam 6.50 pagi, saya mendapat sms dari Tipah yang berbunyi..

"sedihnya. nf dah pergi. xsmpt jmpa.."

Hati saya terasa ngilu... muka terasa perit. Ya Allah.. akhirnya kau pergi jua anakku sayang. Setelah lama bertarung nyawa. Saya berlari ke tingkat atas utk khabarkan pada suami tanpa berfikir butir2 lebih lanjut. Suami terima berita dgn tenang dan menyatakan hasrat utk singgah ke hospital menatap kali akhir. Kemudian hp saya berbunyi kembali tanda terimaan sms.. kali ni dari hairin, bunyinya..

"Salam. Putri kami, nur fatimah tlh kembali ke rahmatullah kira2 pkl 620pg td - ramadhan fitri & khadijah"

Akhirnya berita pengesahan...

Nur Fatimah.. Allah lebih menyayangimu. Syurga telah menunggu2 kehadiranmu. Sesungguhnya kamu sangat beruntung, begitu juga dgn ibu ayahmu... Bukan sedikit ganjaran yang diterima mereka atas kesabaran dan keredhaan mereka menerima pemergianmu.. Sesungguhnya Allah sgt menyayangi kamu sekeluarga...

Al-Fatihah :'( .....

Keletahmu pasti menjadi kerinduan seluruh keluargamu..

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Allah izinkan saya menatap kali terakhir wajah nur fatimah.. Nur Fatimah yang ketika itu sudah di dalam bedungan kain kafan. Wajahnya masih mulus, suci dan tenang.. Mengingatkan pada wajah anak saya, Hana ketika dalam lenanya. Memang saling tak tumpah... Tanpa ditahan2 airmata mengalir spontan.

Saya lihat Dijah.. masih mampu mengukir senyum walaupun jelas raut letih dan sedih di wajahnya. Tenang mengalun bacaan alquran. Sungguh luar biasa kekuatan jiwanya. Dan saya tidak mahu terus-terusan menafsirkan kesedihannnya kerana bimbang saya dihanyutkan sama. Airmata saya terus mengalir2 dlm bacaan yasin yang sempat saya alunkan.. sungguh, saya tak dapat menahan diri dari merasa aura kehilangan permata hati dijah, seolah2 saya juga kehilangan..

Saya insaf.. sememangnya siapa2 pun yang kita kasih dan cinta, bukanlah milik mutlak kita. Saya perlu tanamkan dalam diri. Walaupun anak itu lahir dari rahim saya, darah saya mengalir dalam tubuhnya, kasih sayang saya melimpah ruah padanya.. dia bukan tetap milik saya, saya hanya di'tumpang'kan untuk menjaganya. Suatu masa, suatu ketika.. saya tetap perlu memulangkan dia kepadaNYA. Bahkan diri ini sendiri juga perlu pulang kepadaNYA.. Sesungguhnya maut itu adalah sebaik2 peringatan.

Sayu kala ibu dijah (nenek nur fatimah) mengeluarkan gambar2 ceria nur fatimah di dalam persalinan raya. Hanya gambar2 itu tinggal sebagai pengubat rindu pada Nur Fatimah.

Dan malamnya... selepas saya bergurau senda dengan hana, hana lena di sisi saya. Saya kucup pipinya.. lantas saya terbayangkan dijah. Pasti sunyi malam2 dijah. Ya Allah... hiburkanlah hatinya..

Nur Fatimah.. sungguh saya merasa kehilangan kamu sayang.

Dijah.. sungguh saya mengharapkan sedikit kekuatan jiwa kamu .. sahabatku. InsyaAllah permata kamu yang pergi akan berganti..

Mini Raya09 Gathering

Syawal had set off yesterday..but I'm still not finish with visiting relatives agenda. Lots of houses still need to be attend. Wonder why it seems so time-packed this year. I think we already optimised weekend time by start visiting early in the morning and returned home at night.. hmmmm.... Maybe seemed optimised by hana's existence... had to fullfill her needs while rushing to every house. 3-4 house per day was like..so tired, so long being far away from home. Hehe..not optimum enough though...

Ok...would like to post some pics during my small openhouse @ mini gath. So wonderful to see everyone of u on that day. Some were quite long lost (jauh di mata dekat di hati).. and some could be seen almost every week..hehehe... For those who cant make that day (Khadijah & family, Mahfuzah, Maryam, Faiz, Junaidah, Tipah & family, Wani) nevermind.. we'll see each other next time, kay?? :) Ok, let the pics help me do the talking...

Ok..here comes the 1st (punctual 3pm) guest.. Cik Che Da... and with her was my long lost KISAS junior, Wan Nurul Amellin (miss her so much) and a new fren.. but she (still) didn't bring her future husband like I always asked!!.. :D :D :D

And the 2nd guest arrived right an hour after the 1st..hehe. Puan Nazihah (Jiah) with her beautiful Sumayyah Syahidah and her dearest husband.. Ust Saaban. Ermm.. Min, rugi tak ikut skali oo :D..

Then...half an hour later, this newly-delivered mum arrived with her husband, Ust Hafeez Abu Seman. At this time, she was in 36 weeks of pregnancy.. and now she already gave birth to a handsome baby boy.. and I still haven't pay a visit yet... Sijangkang is quite far..huhu :D

Next..was Hairin and family, this supposed-to-be co-organizer arrived veeery the late.. hahaha :D It's okay, forgiven! :p And next to Muaz is auntie Che Da who tried to 'bodek' Muaz to be her son in law (yet she still not producing any 'Nur Mumtaz bt. Mohd....ehem,ehemm.. lagi)hahaha :))

Tadaa.. the special appereance of the day. Puan Najibah and her cute,adorable 2 months++ Nur 'Aqilah. With Tuan Hisham of course... Now, she settled down in Kuantan..and we could only make conversation thru YM... and only that day, I could see her 'Aqilah after she managed to pass with flying colors in her 'Baby Deliver Examination: July Paper' :D ... Well, I'm one of her 'tutor' to be exact. (gelak guleng2 :))

..and not forgetting the late birds : Rahmat and family (Naimah+Irfan), and the latest bird cum co-organizer who supposed to bring Lemang and Rendang, Cik Aziah.. arrived when everybody was about to give farewell !! And those Lemang were eaten by Tuan Rumah. Luckily the lemang were superb. Rugi aa korang tak makan lemang tuh..hahaha :D

The house was merrier..

The food was great (Mee Rebus tempah from katerer and home made fruit koktel)

Mothers and Mum-to-be were busy chatting...

And fathers and dad-to-be were busy eating...

While the babies were busy sleeping..

And Big Babies (Hana & Muaz) busy flirting.. Hana got 2 kisses from Muaz that day..hahaha, seems like the unborn Mumtaz has to find another boy... Irfan baby Rahmat perhaps?? Hahahaha :D

And this my 2 lovely 'assistants'.. Yg muke ala-ala ayu tuh.. thanks for helping me through the hectic day. And Hana.. for not meragam and very sporting that day.. always smiling and showing her 2 tooties... hehe. I LOVE both of u till the end of my life!! :)

And again, for all of u guys.. thanks for coming, eventho in short time but really meaningful. Dont know when I could see everyone in a happy time again. Hopefully He would give permission to set the wonderful moment next time..InsyaAllah..amin.. :) I love u..all my dearest fren (for those who made it and also who cant make it... Ukhuwwah sejati lestari selamanya) :)

Sembuhlah Nurfatimah sayang...

Setiap manusia pasti diuji..dan tahap ujian pasti berbeza mengikut kemampuan penerimanya. Dan kala ini, sahabat baik saya.. khadijah dan suaminya berdepan dgn ujian yang rasanya tak mampu saya hadapi jika saya di tempat mereka. Malah saya tak mampu untuk membayangkannya...


Beberapa hari lalu..saya terima sms dari hairin tentang nurfatimah yg dimasukkan ke ICU dengan punca yang tidak diketahui. Saya terpana dan tak terkata. Ape yang berlaku sebenarnya? Saya khabarkan pada suami dan mengajak saya ke hospital putrajaya. Saya resah... saya tak tahu mcmana nak berbicara dan menenangkan dijah.. dan saya belum mampu dan belum kuat melihat keadaan nur fatimah.. Tambahan saya tak mahu membawa hana ke hospital. Maka saya tangguhkan niat menziarah. Keesokannya saya cuba telefon dijah sebab hati meluap2 ingin berbicara dengan beliau..tapi call di'reject'.. masa kurang sesuai barangkali. Tak apa..saya memahami... Hari itu, saya masih belum 'ingin' melihat nur fatimah... hari demi hari..saya terima berita perkembangan nurfatimah lewat sahabat2 yg tahu...

Kelmarin..suami saya menyatakan hasrat nak ziarah nurfatimah ketika dlm perjalanan pulang dari ofis di cyberjaya.. Saya menunggu2 suami pulang utk tau perkembangan nurfatimah.. Suami ceritakan yang sedih dan pilu... dan dijah bertanyakan saya di mana? Saat itu, saya rasa bersalah yang begitu tebal kerana menangguh2kan keinginan saya... Maka esoknya saya mengajak suami sekali lagi menziarah nurfatimah....

Maka semalam, saya mengumpul kekuatan, menabahkan hati utk melihat keadaan nurfatimah... suami memesan.." nanti jangan nangis ye"... saya diamkan. Debaran bila melihat hospital, hanya Allah aje yg tau.. apetah lagi bila melangkah ke wad ICU. Ramadhan menyambut kehadiran kami sekeluarga. Dan saat saya melihat nurfatimah dari luar kamar ICU.. airmata mula bergenang. Khadijah bersama nurfatimah dan seorang pelawat yang tidak saya kenali. Saya harus menunggu giliran selepas fadzir dan isteri. Tak apa..sabarrr...

Akhirnya giliran saya tiba... dan saya masuk bersama seorang wanita yg tidak juga saya kenali. Saya mendekati katil nurfatimah... dan perkataan pertama saya setelah melihat anak kecil itu " AllahuRabbi".. lalu deraslah airmata saya mengalir2..tak tertahan2, ingin saja saya memeluk bayi kecil yang dipenuhi dengan tiub2 di sana sini.. nurfatimah, apelah yang telah membawa kamu jadi sebegini sayang? dadanya berdegup tapi degup itu dari mesin. Matanya bengkak dan bibirkan kering dan layu. Ya ALlah... sangat meruntun naluri keibuan saya. Saya tersedu sedan di dalam kamar. Hati saya tak lekang merayu padaNya agar mengurniakan keajaibanNya pada anak itu. Kemudian wanita di depan saya pula menangis..

10 minit di dalam kamar itu, saya dan wanita itu keluar. Saya masih belum selesai tersedu sedan. Dan saya lihat khadijah yang tadinya tenang..pun sama mengalirkan airmata. Ya Allah, harapnya saya tidaklah melemahkan semangat dijah dgn esakan saya. Dijah yang menenangkan saya dgn kekuatan jiwanya. Sifat husnuzzhannya lebih kuat berbanding saya.. Dijah memberitahu yang jururawat meminta ibu bapa nurfatimah untuk bermalam di hospital kerana kondisi nurfatimah yang semakin lemah. Sedu saya datang kembali. Dijah meminta izin utk menemani nurfatimah dan saya terus berlalu mendapatkan hana dari suami saya. Saya peluk hana dan menangis kembali. Hana hanya tersengih2 dan menarik2 tudung saya. Kemudian saya ke bilik menunggu dan bertemu ibu dijah dan ramadhan...berbicara lebih kurang dan meminta izin utk pulang memandangkan laungan azan maghrib sudah kedengaran.

Saya serahkan hana pada suami dan kembali ke ruang ICU untuk bertemu dijah sebelum pulang. Dari luar kamar ICU, saya melihat Ramadhan sedang berbicara dgn nurfatimah diselang seli dengan bacaan alquran. Tersentuh hati saya walaupun tidak mendengar butir bicara ayah nurfatimah dan melihat nurfatimah kaku tidak membalas... Kemudian dijah mengusap muka nurfatimah dan berbicara. Airmata saya kembali laju... Saya tidak mahu mengganggu masa berharga mereka dan menunggu hingga salah seorang mereka keluar. Dan akhirnya, setelah 10 minit..Ramadhan keluar dari kamar ICU dan saya meminta izin utk pulang sambil menyatakan harapan agar Allah menetapkan yang terbaik buat mereka sekeluarga..dan mudah2an yang terbaik itu gembira. Ramadhan mengucapkan terima kasih atas ziarah kami dan kami pulang dengan kesayuan.

Dan sejak itu..sehingga kini, wajah mulus seorang bayi yang sedang bertarung dengan nyawa sentiasa bermain di fikiran saya... dan saya sentiasa dirundung kesedihan yang teramat bila mengenangkannya. Saya lebih emosi dalam doa saya kepada nurfatimah berbanding anak saya sendiri.. :'( Kenapa?.. kerana saya tahu..rasa naluri seorang ibu yang baru mendapat anak pertama ! Ya Allah...permudahkanlah urusan keluarga mereka, rahmatilah mereka dengan kegembiraan..kerana mereka adalah antara hamba2Mu yang teguh keimanannya... :'(

'Eid Edition : 1st Episode

Wahh..seems like most of my blogger frens already shared their raya stories. And right now... I cant even think of arranging plots for my raya tales to be jotted down here. Tonnes of work to do and I have to chase deadline on next Friday (9/10/09). For the whole week I keep my attention totally on doing them ( too many to describe here )..but..at this particular moment, I really wanna do something else rather than focusing on current task. So..lets take a look at some part of my raya new experience. Why new? yeah..absolutely ..definitely coz of my sweet daughter, Raihana Izzati :)

The day before raya (Saturday)..

I was busy being a chef at mom in-law's house. Started right on the afternoon after I came by.. we started to cook some common raya menus : I did the sambal goreng (javanese dish - johorean should know this ), kuah kacang and kuah lodeh. I left the main course (rendang ayam) to the senior chef : mama...hehehe :) (Instant)Nasi impits were done by father in-law. Hubby? heee... 'deal' with Hana for sure. We finished everything at 6 o'clock and alhamdulillah.. the last fast-breaking of Ramadhan completely done. Ramadhan left us behind and will only come back next year.. If permissible, insyaAllah.. we'll meet again :'( So.. after maghrib prayer, we had the 'salam-salam' event together.. and I received my 1st (and last) duit raya from my in-laws..hehe, thanks mama + ayah :) After that 'forgiving' and switching duit hari raya event, we perform solat isyak and 'eid takbir.. Right after that, we started our balik kampung journey to Alor Gajah. This year is our turn to spend 1st day of raya at my kampung.. and part of all my worries began : Can Hana stand the situation???

Arrived at Alor Gajah almost at 10.30pm.. The balcony was fulled with my relatives.. Hana still steady (hahaha). After a minute I put her in her walker..she walked away a bit and suddenly I heard she cried... Hehe, she was pinched by her 1 year old pakcik..hahahahaha :D pity her... My dad (hana's atok) entertained her while I helped at the kitchen. Hubby?.. sebuk nak maen mercun and hanging with my unmarried + married but mcm budak2 punye cousins :D Overall, hana's performance was quite good that night. She slept soundly in her moyang's room and that went by peacefully (everyone was still tired of their own journey I guess).

1st day of Raya...

1 Syawal 1430..

Everyone woke up early that morning.. definitely for 1 purpose : ETR - Entering Toilet Race.. hahaha :) a normal situation in raya morning. Best people took the very early turn, done with shower and perform prayer at masjid ( my dad, my hubby and grandfather). Lucky people still took the early turn and able to perform subuh prayer on a correct time and those not-too-lucky did the 'subuh gajah' prayer.. hehehe..

Then, everyone had their short breakfast before rushed to mosque. Early birds gained the best place while late birds (hahaha) perform 'eid prayer next to the mosque stairs, balcony, even toilets :) And where was I?? hehe... preparing my hana to look stunning before 'salam-salam' event with everyone :) hehehe... then.. the event started...

Visiting houses..

On that day.. we visited 6 houses around alor gajah. And on the last house, hana and me looked very 'selebet' and 'merengas'.. she was very tired coz of her uncertain sleep schedule, dealt(cried) with people who tried to hold her, feeling hot in crowded houses.. and I also got selebet coz of calming her from keep crying. She pulled my tudung, my baju when tried to defend herself from been taken by others..hehe, syian ye... :)

Much worst, after the visits ended.. as I reached my nenek's house. My cousins began the 'main mercun' session..arghh!! I H.A.T.E this part... unfortunately, my hubby took part in this session. What can I say?? I can only nagging myself... Hana was very tired and she couldn't sleep coz of the blasting sounds.. what's the consequence? she whined laa kan??..For God sake! ayooo... at last she slept after those 'gentlemen' had their late nite supper at warung. And the nite gain her peaceful back...

2nd & 3rd day of raya..

More relax than yesterday... everyone was taking their time, had breakfast and watch tv.. most of the relatives already headed to in-laws house and so will us... That afternoon, we had to meet mama & ayah at Garden Hotel, Batu Pahat. So .. after gave farewell greet to my family and the rest of relatives, we began our journey to batu pahat (bp) at 10.30 o'clock a.m. Hana slept all the way from alor gajah to BP..still tired perhaps.. And I can say that she was completely tired for the whole 2 days in BP + Neg.9. She always cried.. and she woke up at night and cried, she cant eat properly.. and the saddest part, she became very passive before we reach N9. Very quiet and keep hugging me. I cant stand of seeing her like that.. Right after we reached hubby's aunt's house.. I took hana to bath. Then after that, she regain her energy :) After maghrib, we rushed to Serdang as everyone of us started to had a headache, moody and 'badan melekit2'.. hehehe. Hana enjoyed her meal that nite so much by finishing the whole mangkuk of nestum. Hahaha... and we ended that nite with early went to sleep.

So, the evaluation for Alor Gajah & BP ???

- Hana was .. OK la..except for BP and N9.

- We should have a good supply of water, especially to bath hana if she already whined in the middle of journey. I think R & R are not too suitable right? Quite dirty...

- We should prepare more for the uncertain condition especially dealing with Hana's tiredness.

- Maybe should standby more of refreshments for ourself?

But.. next year Hana will be 1 year ++ .. the 'ragam' should be lesser ..rite? hopefully :)

p/s : Piccas will be attached soon.. I lost my phone cable :p